i've got the bloggin blues....

*disclaimer: it was late.

very late.




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you know. i love blogging.

i have never once (okay maybe once) complained about it...(there was a time last summer that i got a little overwhelmed...but i blame the childrens for that...this summer i'm going to ship them to a summer camp like in parent trap so they can all find their long lost twins and switch places and i get three kids in return that are just plain happy to have a mother..regardless if she spends her time gluing stuff to other stuff.)
 (the old school one with hayley and not the new one with lindsay)

but i've been feeling down...

and it's not so much the craft part...nor the spending of time writing posts (sometimes it's more fun than the crafting...)

I've always wanted to write a book...

wait...i'm off again...

it's the OTHER SIDE of bloggin...
the side no one talks about (i was whispering in a scary voice with a flashlight under my skin)
(okay..i don't have a flashlight cause it's literally 12:21 at night and i'm all tucked in under my blanket and i'm sure the flashlights are all dead cause my daughter likes to read late at night (unannounced to her mother until her mother goes to make her bed and finds the flashlight covered in drool)

(again..crap...)

There is this side of bloggin that is no fun...The side where you have to worry about stuff...

like SEO..

who knows what that is?
Something
Evil
Okay?
Super
Exaggerated
Opinion?
okay..i suck at that..
it's search engine optimization....
no reallly...i didn't make that one up.
 
It's stuff us bloggers do so when people google something...it's OUR blogs that pop up and then we can be rich and famous and make loads of money...

or just so our blog pops up.

and SEO is saying that i should go back and rename all my pictures (instead of IMG 4543.)
(Seo is a #$#%$)
Have we met? I take a bazillion pictures. i put pictures where literally no pictures are needed.

an overshare of pictures. I can't even write all this without going back and googling pictures to add
(and the ones i pick i'm sure have been renamed so they popped up first.)

I refuse. REFUSE to go back and rename all my pictures. i won't even try to.

do you know long it to took me to get my tutorial page all organized? and i had only been blogging for a year at the time...it was many a day... cereal was the breakfast lunch and dinner....

it just ain't happening.
and on top of seo..there is the "rules" about giveaways on facebook..and writing that weird paragraph about getting paid for you opinion and they are 100 % mine. (i would totally write..they are 75% mine...25% the money.) and did you know that if you have you web address on your big picture thingy on facebook, facebook could delete you? (thanks kim!) and stumbling (still have no clue) and updating you tutorials page, and submitting projects, and making sure your advertisers are properly rotated  and plug ins for wp(?) and linky parties --- i still am a blogspot and haven't switched over to .com cause i'm scared (and clueless)

and ANOTHER thing...
i feel like I need to be a computer tech to keep up with all the gadgets and widgets that are out for bloggers these days...Just when i feel like i'm doing okay and finally figure out html I go to someone else's blog and see all fancy tutorials pop ups and links that magically show up when you reach the end of her weekend round up. (it fascinates me everytime.)

I just get to the point where i'm all, what happened to everyone just having the backgrounds from hot bliggity blog? you just pick the fun polka dots with the ribbon and flower and you're done
(if you have a blog that has that EXACT  background you just earned yourself 1000 glue gun points.)

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and let's talk emails:

i get a lot
(i can ONLY imagine the amount JEN gets...geesh!)

and i hate them.

now-- don't get me wrong...if you are emailing me about a question or comment...i'm okay with those (i encourage it!!!) and if you are emailing me to say how much you love me (my email is kimbowest (21) at gmail.com)...i print those off and put them in my journal....

but i get alot of emails from companies about advertising.....and i made myself a rule when this blog started getting serious:

I said, Kim, don't become a money loving ho.


aka. DON'T BECOME A SELL OUT

(i also told myself i would not embarrass my mother...sorry about the ho mom.)


and some of these companies want to pay me to write about them..or to advertise for them...and i have to say no. cause I try to keep it sTRICTLY craft here at agaagg
(you know besides those annoying random posts that sometimes sneak out..that include no crafts but a bunch of whining.)

and if you know me like only my sisters and mothers do (and sometimes my husband) i don't do no. i will tell you yes..just to avoid telling you no. Hey kim do you want to come jump of this cliff for me ...please?
gulp..sure i do.

I have a "just say no" problem. i'm working on it. (i don't do drugs...i can 'just say no' to that....even though by the time you get to the end of my post you might think i do)

(also closely related is my "i don't answer my phone  cause i never know what the person is going to ask me and i will say yes regardless of what it is" problem)

hey kim do you want to watch my 5 kids for me while i go on a cruise for a week?
gulp...ohsure i do.

i'm a screener...if i like what i hear on the voicemail you will get a call back.

I literally had to scroll back  up to find out what i'm talking about.
saying no.

i hate it.

so when people contact me i have like anxiety about being all, i'm super sorry but i just don't think portapotties really fit in with the theme of my blog....i'll have to pass.
(okay i have not been contacted by a porta potty company.

and i would have said yes cause it would be funny.)

(dudes that was totally scary googling porta potties....i was NOT sure what was going to pop up.)

(or poop up...)

ha.

but i hate it...and sometimes i don't do it...and those emails just sit there taunting me from my inbox...
seriously...
I have days were i wake up and i'm all...kim. strap on those big girl panties cause today you are going to answers those emails.
(i also have days were i wake up and i'm all...kim...quit talking to yourself  cause people are starting to look at you funny. but then i just say shut up to that kim...)

NOW..before you start making assumptions...(do i have a few of you panicked?) I'M Not quitting...
i'm not even slowing down...i still have craft ideas coming at me like wildfire. i literally have 98 posts in drafts...

i guess what i'm trying to say is that sometimes my blog feels like a 4,000 square foot house that has 3 kids, a dog and a husband that i'm solely in charge of cleaning...(on top of doing the other stuff i do...like paint toe nails and kiss boo boos and poor cereal for dinner)

i just miss my 950 foot studio apartment above a garage when everything was just like sweep sweep sweep dust dust dust load the dishwasher and done.

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I just don't want to spend the rest of my life chained to the computer.

i just want to craft.

and then write ridiculous posts that go on entirely too long..

that have pictures named whatever the crap my computer puts them as..

then i want to jump on the tramp with my kids.

and have a water fight.

and eat marshmallows

and pin some pins on pinterest

and kiss my husband.

a lot...LOT.

If i remembered how to do math i would do it right now...and take the hours i put into blogging...and divide that by what i make in advertising

and i can bet my glue gun i'm making about 58 cents an hour.

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i do it cause i love it.

i really really do.

if in 10 years i'm still doing it.

i will be happy.

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i just get overwhelmed sometimes.

and sometimes i take that and vent on my blog about it.

and lucky you gets to spend 25 minutes reading it..

(i really hope my husband reads this...i think he will be relieved to know that it wasn't his fault (this time) that i've been in such a grumpy mood this past week)

and now that i have wasted all your time.....do you know what would be especially lovely?, if you went to your favoritest blog and left them a comment telling them you love them....cause sometimes they just need to hear it.

(and i'm not just saying that cause i want a bunch of comments...just go..spread the love.)

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